never mind about yesterday...even though emotionally stable...things aren't getting any better w/ family and relatives...XP...but i have to admit my family has reason to be angry and dissappointed with my relatives...they really aren't acting like faithful Christians at all (not my family of course...but we also have our faults)...sowie i can't put these things on the blog...we all can just pray that God will provide a way out for us...and we need not take vengeance, for the Lord already said that the vengeance is His to do and He will follow through with it. *sigh*...i'm glad i am learning from all this though...hopefully when my parents pass away, my brother and i will not have these kind of stupid arguments like today...the air was so tense...i really got a real look at what my relatives true images were...and i'd like to say that i am not at all impressed...in many ways, i have already diminished my respect and trust for my relatives. Personally, perhaps my downfall, i usually give a person 'full' trust and respect when i first know them...however, the way they act, the things they do, etc. either diminish or increase my respect and trust for them as i get to know them better. i know that we are not all perfect...but the things my relatives are doing to my family, you really only need a conscience and common sense to do the right things. Some good things came out of the funeral and stuff though...was able to get some extensions on some of the projects and tests that were scheduled for some classes moved back to a later date...thank you Lord. still concerned about chem...i need the course, but i am not really doing that well in it, i need Andrew here to help me w/ it XP...he's such a genius...right now i have some Abba on...:P soothes the soul...mabbe i should put on some punk/rock on...get all that anger out...i should also spend more time w/ JC tho...need to read up more on the bible...words of wisdom from David or Samuel? Also need to work out a plan for my PRing, as i have not been as faithful as i should be...*sigh*...Lord i need you even more than ever...please fill my whole being...show me what to do...forgive me if i have done wrong. Love You.