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Notes To Ppl
alan mmm...i'm so glad i can share everything w/ u...*smiles* my squishie...u da best :P
crys SIC...share highs and lows together...praise God
ian my lil bro...u are truly God's blessing to me...i will always love and cherish you forever...peaceout bro =) *hug*
joycee-poo bebe...ur the best...i love you
nathan thanx for being there when i need you...*laugh* silly gooberhead, glad to know that you'll always be close by =)
sares halo my baby!!!...praying for you...when all is gone...
scottie letting go...unceasing tide...
viv oh frosh...teehee...love chatting w/ u, hanging out w/ u, challenging me...my friend =)
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Wednesday, December 31, 2003

*sigh*...winter break is almost over...;P never had so many memories packed into almost two weeks. *laugh* i'm crazy...yes, crazy about *someone* Yesterday i went over to orleans to visit one of my friends that i have not seen for like two years...isn't that crazy? We have like only talked on the phone...so yup, yesterday was pretty fun. Grrr...even though i had to wake up early to get a ride down to orleans...it was SOooo worth it. So yeah, we just talked and looked at her yearbooks...rented some movies: SWAT and Charlie's Angels...we only watched SWAT though...after that we decided to got to the Place d'Orleans mall...walked around...*laugh*...be both are at like on opposite sides, i have trouble finding pants my size due to my NOT so lean thighs and shortness...SHE on the other hand has trouble finding pants her size due to her height and the pants being too short and wide at the hips...hahaha...the irony...btw, she's 5 8". So yeah...what happened next was sort of like a blur, neways, she asked me if i wanted to call up Scott and Andrew just to say hi and stuff...called Andrew's house first...Andrew's mother picked up, i think, and said that he was over at Scott's working on their physics project...might i just add in here that i am super glad that i am NOT taking physics this year? It would have killed me...not them :P they're geniuses. So yes, where was i again...oh yeah, so i was like, Suurrreee, we could call them, blah, called Andrew, blahblah, and since he was at Scott's house, i called Scott's...can't just call it a coincidence because...*laugh* as my msn title puts it "He works in mysterious ways"...and yeah, it just so happened that i just caught Scott as he was getting ready to leave w/ Andrew to Home Depot to find some materials to build their catapult. I don't know if it was him or me...no, couldn't have been me...well, he asked if me and Jas wanted to come w/ them to home depot...:P*smiles* of course i was like YES!!!!YES! YES!haha...not out loud into the payphone of course...i asked jas, she was a little iffy since her parents are really strict with boys and stuff, you get the drift, my parents can be like that too...so yeah..on impulse...let me remind you, as you already know...i HARDLY EVER do things on impulse...haha...i like to plan things...have sort of a schedule...right, ne ways, we waited for approx. 5 min. cuz i thought that Scott was driving, so i was looking for his van when it was really Andrew who was driving his purple van. Oh well, *smiles*...i was concerned about the time...ahem...cuz yeah...parents...ne ways, we made it to home depot safely and just followed Scott and Andrew as they looked around for materials to build their catapult with. *laugh* fun stuff ;P...*sigh*...i miss orleans...and i miss the people there...:P i'm such a sucker for romance sometimes...>.< but i know from experience that i need to keep a straight head on...be realistic, have realistic expectations, examine CLOSELY what the person is really like, blah blah. I can't believe that i will be going to uni next year...*sigh* where did the time go? As an ancient Chinese proverb once said, that is very true...A piece of time is like a piece of gold, but you cannot buy back a piece of time with a piece of gold...or something rather. Still need to finish my hwk...starting to get stressed...breath in, breath out...i can do all things through Him who give me strength. Also have to start thinking of some pieces to play for the communion services at OCAC...argh the nerves...gotta finish writing some letters to some ppl before they leave...*smiles*...and i definitely want to talk w/ Andrew and Scott again about when we can see each other again...soon i hope...mabbe after their exams, which i know is soon. *laugh* mabbe we can all go bowling...as a group date of course...nothing alone just yet...><...*cram**cram**cram**cram*...give me a sign so that i might believe.


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Monday, December 29, 2003

We were filled with laughter, and we sang for joy. And the other nations said, "What amazing things the LORD has done for them." Psalm 126:2 NLT
Just got back from T.O...:Pnice seeing that place again...sort of...it's a good place to go shopping! ^.^ Anyways, gotta unpack stuff...argh...got hwk on my mind now that i am home...got lots of it to finish...However, i'm pretty sure God will help me make my load light?! :)


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Friday, December 26, 2003

Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down...
Isaiah 53:4 NLT


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Christmas is here! Yay! Wow...it just went by like *that*...but, i already have so many memories to write down for just these past few days...*smiles*...i'm in dreamland...i had the best 'date' if you could call it that w/ Scott...and Andrew and his gf. *sigh*...he is basically what i am looking for in a guy...only...mabbe i need a little bit more committment signs coming from him? But hey, as i have read about, and learned, not everybody is perfect, and can't live up to all of the standards people may have set out for them...well, i guess we'll take it one step at a time...we both know that this not just something wishy-washy...we'd be like in a serious relationship...You know what i just realized? I have basically known Andrew and Scott for 8 years...since elementary school...that's a lot of memories...*laugh**smiles*...especially in elementary school. *sigh*...those were the days. Yes, so, about the sat. date...*smiles* (i can't help it)...laugh...i think he still likes me...as do i...pray...prayer is all i can do...i really need to seek God's guidance on this matter...but the dreams i have had, what i THINK God is trying to show me...are pretty encouraging...i mean...what guy would drive like half and hour to pick up a girl to watch a movie, and drive her back home knowing that the return trip back home would take at least and hour? That has gotta show something...*laugh**smiles*...we did the touch shoulder thing...the lay the head on shoulder thing...we did the holding arms thing...we did the hug thing...we did the parent thing...(he met my dad at the door...laugh...i suspect my dad was waiting for me to come home and...ahem...yeah...*smiles*...good ol dad...worrying about his daughter with a boy, but he has met him quite a few times before, but still...haha...he does have a handy 'fly swatter' close by) This tues i am going down to orleans again to chillax with a friend of mine who also goes to the same school as scott and andrew...I owe andrew so much...he really is an awesome friend...should do something special for him...hrmmm...Mom is going boxing day shopping tom. teehee, silly mom...however, i just might tag along...that is, if i can wake up for it...she wants to go at 7am...7 AM! Ai ya...even though i do love shopping...that time just might be pulling me away just a little bit...:P Jen's sleepover party was kinda blah...no offense...i dunno...was going to babysit on mon. night, but my next door neighbor's daughter got sick, so they ended up canceling their own outing...so yeah...good time to go finish my x-mas shopping! Finally...i got my shopping done, tues was Leon's x-mas party...was pretty fun...would prolly have played DDR, but was kinda scared to...i dunno...i might have done it if only my close friends were there...then i wouldn't be so embarrassed and stuff...oh well...i'm stupid to be embarrassed about such little things...got a chance to chat and stuff with ppl i haven't seen for a long time...:P i go to uni next year...i won't be a 'little' girl nemore...grrrr...*sigh* oh btw, *ahem*'s b-day and mine is approx two months and 3 days apart...:P...*laugh* Andrea came over for a sleepover...good times...haha...msn? who has ever heard of msn? overcooked food? Haha...silly dad...good times...good times...Christmas gifts...*wow*...i have been totally blown away by this years gifts...particularily my dads...i NEVER...EVER, in my life would have expected such an awesome, WONDERFUL, amazing, spectacular gift...get my drift? He gave me MY VERY OWN stethoscope. MY OWN! MY VERY OWN! :P MY PRECIOUUUSSSS...haha...i'm serious tho...i'm still blown away at such an amazing gift...i'm really glad that my parents support me in what i want to study...even going so far as to already provide the instruments that i need to use...i will always remember this day...imagine eh? my very own stethoscope...sowie, but i'm in awe...i promise to take very very good care of it...it's real baby...and apparently it's top of the line also...are aren't cheap babies...:P i have two babies now...my violin and stethoscope...teehee...nobody touches them except for me...serious! :) You know, it's kinda scary at times...i mean, my dad and i are so much alike...stubborn, easy-going people...more fun than work ;P...SOME of the same tastes...i love ABBA and sort of Simon and Garfunkel...arrrr...the rebel i am...ne ways, better get to bed if...IF i want to go shopping w/ my mom tom. Thank you Lord for everything...you have blessed me beyond measure...i cannot imagine your vast love for me...never let me forget that You always come first...may Your Will be done on earth as in heaven...Abba...my lovely Abba...how i love you...thank you...thank you...thank you so much...


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Thursday, December 18, 2003

two more days of school...fa-la-la-la-la--la-la-la la...YES! ;P So sick of school...want out NOW! :P *laugh*...in such a good mood today...can you guess why? WHY? WHY? why? Teehee...cuz i talked to SOMEBODY today...*ahem* give you a clue...starts with an s, and rhymes with...rhymes with...alot...hahahaha.Yes, i am crazy...;P i have reason to be okay? Prolly going to see LOTR with him...*singing* and he is driving me...tra-la-la...AND i'm going to spend another 3hrs with him in theatres...haha...anyways, gotta finish X'mas shopping...got band practice again tom...or should i say today? Yech...toodleloos journal :) ps- Shira's going to Paris and Vienna tomorrow...so jealous (j/k of course) Nikki's going on a carribean cruise tom...so jealous (j/k of course again) g2g "Love conquers all" *sigh*


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Tuesday, December 16, 2003

I am but a foreigner here on earth; I need the guidance of your commands...
Psalm 119:19 NLT


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had the MOST hectic day of my life...two tests in a row...calculus and then bio...i swear i was hyperventilating...i have never been so nervous for two tests than today...and now i can breath a sigh of relief and hope that i did well on both of my tests. *sigh* so much to do this week. Gotta get X'mas shopping done...got a band concert tom. night, band practise tom. morning, data mgmt assignment due on Fri, quiz in chem on either wed. or fri. (our teacher hasn't decided yet *rolling eyes*), and yeah :P just glad that i have somebody to lean on...my Abba...oh, wanna hear something exciting? i am part of a promotional group called Street Alliance. They help fans of certain artists promote their music...i am part of Jaci Valesquez, Salvador, Sixpence none the Richer, Point of Grace, Downhere, Strange Celebrity, Nicole C. Mullen, and i think Kristy Starling's promo team also...so cool...a few weeks back i requested some materials to promote Jaci Valesquez's Christmas album, and the flats were actually sent to me! Wow...*feel so important* teehee...so i kept one for myself, cuz i love her too, and saved one for another potential admirer of Jaci's music, and gave the rest to Salem Storehouse! Moi, an ambassador for Jaci...*smiles* Uni ppl coming back home this week...wonder what it will be like? Anyways, ciao...enough for one night...have to get up early for band practice tom. or should i say today ;P "He is no fool who gives what he cannot take to gain what he cannot lose" Jim Elliot


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Saturday, December 13, 2003

...many who are first now will be last then...
Matthew 20:16 NLT


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Wednesday, December 10, 2003

Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD is the one who goes before you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:8 NLT
mmmm...very nice to hear, and very encouraging...love you JC


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Monday, December 08, 2003

feeling really REALLY stressed out at the moment...so much to do and so little time...it also doesn't help that i am sort of procrastinating, am i tho?...egad...really freaking out...i have to apply to universities soon...*heart pumping**lub dub lub dub*...ahhhhhhhh!!!!!! I just sometimes find it so hard to rely on God...because there is so much pressure for me to do well...should i just trust in Him to carry me through? Just how hard should i study? Will God perform a miracle for me? Like help me ace this upcoming calc roll the die (tom.) and calc test that the HARDEST teacher has written for us (thurs.)...i am seriously running around trying to calm myself down...*stay sane...stay sane** Ha-ha...God is said to put you through trials to make you an even better person....PLlleeeaaaasssseeee...can we just pass these trials and get this week over and done with? Plllleeaassseee? I know, i know it's monday...don't remind me...i can't think straight...i think this is going to be one of those weeks where i will not be going to bed until 1:30am...too much...ai ya...how am i going to survive uni eh? *laugh*...i know what i am going to be when i grow up...ha-ha...a garbageman...*wahhhhh!*...i don't want to...okay, have to get back to studying...think think think...:(


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Friday, December 05, 2003

God Knew Our Greatest Need

If our greatest need
had been information,
God would have sent us an educator.

If our greatest need
had been technology,
God would have sent us a scientist.

If our greatest need
had been money,
God would have sent us an economist.

If our greatest need
had been pleasure,
God would have sent us an entertainer.

But our greatest need
was forgiveness,
so God sent us a Saviour.



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