Salvation that comes from trusting Christ--which is the message we preach--is already within easy reach...
Romans 10:8 NLT
Life is blah...just trying to survive each day...*however, am looking forward to the following two weekends...teehee...*scott* school...after pressure from friends...decided to sign up for grad auction...err...bad idea? church meeting tonight...prolly be going home after that...hafta study for calc test coming up...yech...

...What is more pleasing to the LORD: your burnt offerings and sacrifices or your obedience to his voice? Obedience is far better than sacrifice.
1 Samuel 15:22 NLT
What does it mean? Interesting verse...must study with more depth. Argh...so much hwk and tests going around...sigh...need peace, *relax* God is in control...

This is real love. It is not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.
-1 John 4:10 NLT
Can't believe that tom. is thurs. already...where did the time go? Last weekend was *wonderful**fantabulous**indescribable**blah blah*...smiles...had a great time w/ Scott. So many memories already being made.*sigh*wow...i never thought...feel so blessed...to have a guy like me like that on earth, and to have irreplacable close friends down here also...thank you Lord. laugh...now please PLEASE Lord...watch over me in school...must work harder...learning new things everyday in all aspects of my life. Lord, in all that i do, please let it be pleasing to You. May i follow the path You have already etched out for me...may i always keep You #1 in every aspect of my life. Without You i am nothing. Plz bless and continue to guide my relationship w/ scott, and may it be pleasing to You. Love you Abba~ P.S- school teachers are insane and insensitive...who assigns all the tests and project dates on exactly the same day as every other teacher...i swear they want us to fail high school.:P

:D :D :D...teehee...whuf...what an exhausting week it has been, tests, hwk...friends!! :D Very happy...got a chance to talk to pooky for some time on thurs. heh...screw studying for data mgmt...heh...it wasn't too bad today actually...got a chance to study again first period too...:P and i snoozed a little too...ahhh, gotta love my pillows, laugh, so proud of them...made them myself, not that it was that hard to do. Talked to scott tonight too, hehe...1hr and 15min! pretty good for a guy, have to say that i am impressed...esp. since i know that he isn't really the phone type of person either...:P showing some effort here! Plans for weekend...get shots tom. morning for overseas trip, do hwk, then go to orleans to pick up grandma to bring to airport...*sniff sniff*:*( will prolly be a sad time actually...i still can't believe that she won't be living here ne more...going to really sincerely miss her, then off to scott's house...smiles :D we're going skating on the canal! laugh...and so much more...we'll see, time is of the essence...just need to see where God pushes/ pulls us...but i know that as hard as it is for me to admit, everything God does, whether i like it or not, is for the good of me, and i am not here for the fun of it, i am here to spread the gospel and good news. So yeah...sun. will basically be church and finish up hwk...blah...oh well, sat. will more than make up for it ;P. For now, i say adios amigos

feeling the blues today...so stressed out...not a lot of great things happening at all...my only glimmer of sunshine will prolly be with Scott on Sat. IF that even happens.*sigh*

feel blah...have this incessant yearning to see Scott...wanted to call him tonight, but it was already 10:30, thought it would be kinda unkind to call him that late...wouldn't want to get on his parents bad side now would we? School was blah this week...the usual, tests, projects, tons of hwk...re-evaluating my decision to leave home to study uni...is it really worth it? :P i know where both of my parents want me to be...home...money, blah blah...argh...i certainly don't really need them to be breathing down my back all the time. One thing that i am psyched about is that my mom and i are going to HK...so cool...haven't been there like for 10 years...relatives, shopping...missing one week of school tho...don't know how that will affect my marks...which reminds me that i should tell my teachers about it soon. Hopefully will see Scott next week...we're definitely planning something for Feb14 tho...will definitely keep that weekend open. SS is okay la...ppl from gr11 are now in our class...should be interesting and have more intelligent convers. than last semester...Went to my school grad pool party...if you could call it that...interesting...had some fun i guess...couldn't do that much though...basically all the girls were in bikinis...:P now if i just pull these strings here...i don't know how they don't feel really self conscious about their bodies and image...i don't think i could ever do that...especially in a public pool with guys around...i guess if you really wanted the attention...i certainly didn't tonight...one piece all the way, slimming and perfect coverup...laugh...besides, at the moment i don't even own a two piece bathing suit. sigh...images, images. Yesterday i was so ooo unbelievably tired...can you believe i actually went to bed at 9:30? weirdo huh? on a friday night too...i dunno...i was just sooo tired. Grandma leaving soon for Calgary...sigh...things are so messed up on my dad's side of the family right now...still on good terms w/ both of my cousins tho...sigh, i can sorta feel the stress building up on me...so many things to do...so little time, and i just sometimes find it so hard to concentrate sometimes...Abba Abba

life is good...God is continually showing down His blessings...I love You Abba...thank you for saving my life

He will remove all of their sorrows, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain.
Revelation 21:4 NLT
Ahhh...what a glorious God He is...:D *laugh*...yeah...wonder who I'VE been talking to again. *scottie*teehee...it's great...you know, everytime i talk to him, see him...i can't stop smiling...and keep on smiling till i go to sleep. I really want to do what is right...and if God continues to provide me with all these oppurtunities to be and speak with him, it must mean something...but i need to take things slow...i don't want to make any mistakes, or regret anything later on...i look to You Lord for guidance in this area...in all the areas of my life because i cannot live without You...i give Scott into Your hands, and my life into Your hands...that You may guide and teach us what to do...we want to honour You. Thank you Abba for everything...You alone make me purely happy

I will lie down in peace and sleep, for you alone, O LORD, will keep me safe.
Psalm 4:8 NLT

We also pray that you will be strengthened with his glorious power so that you will have all the patience and endurance you need... Colossians 1:11 NLT
*argh*...Must...continue...must...work...

*augh*...school starts in two days and i haven't finished my hwk yet...still, i wouldn't have given anything up for the past few week's events...*sigh*...so many memories to keep and cherish...friends coming over, me going over to friends, blah blah. Oh yeah...saw the Dead Sea Scrolls yesterday...was really a neat experience...think about it...a lot of our beliefs and scripture come from these scrolls...and i was there to actually see the real thing...*wow*...^-^ like i said, was an awesome experience that i will prolly never be able to experience again. I was like *this* close to all those artifacts and documents dating back to B.C. and A.D. Precious Father, thank You for sending Your Son so that all might live. I know what i believe to be true, and just seeing all those artifacts just solidified my faith in You. Thank you Abba. Jen called me tonight...she rented Drumline as promised...hopefully i can see it w/ her. :P Should actually finish up some of my work...so i should prolly end this blog soon. Thank you Abba for everything You have given me these past few weeks...i just ask that You would continue to guide me in everything that i do, and that in everything i will bless You, for i know that only You come first in my life...no one else can compare to You, please help me keep that in mind. Love you Abba~ *sigh* to see the heavens and all that You have created is something i hope to see soon for this world makes me tired, and it clouds my eyes from seeing perfectly all that is true and beautiful...You are #1.