feel blah...have this incessant yearning to see Scott...wanted to call him tonight, but it was already 10:30, thought it would be kinda unkind to call him that late...wouldn't want to get on his parents bad side now would we? School was blah this week...the usual, tests, projects, tons of hwk...re-evaluating my decision to leave home to study uni...is it really worth it? :P i know where both of my parents want me to be...home...money, blah blah...argh...i certainly don't really need them to be breathing down my back all the time. One thing that i am psyched about is that my mom and i are going to HK...so cool...haven't been there like for 10 years...relatives, shopping...missing one week of school tho...don't know how that will affect my marks...which reminds me that i should tell my teachers about it soon. Hopefully will see Scott next week...we're definitely planning something for Feb14 tho...will definitely keep that weekend open. SS is okay la...ppl from gr11 are now in our class...should be interesting and have more intelligent convers. than last semester...Went to my school grad pool party...if you could call it that...interesting...had some fun i guess...couldn't do that much though...basically all the girls were in bikinis...:P now if i just pull these strings here...i don't know how they don't feel really self conscious about their bodies and image...i don't think i could ever do that...especially in a public pool with guys around...i guess if you really wanted the attention...i certainly didn't tonight...one piece all the way, slimming and perfect coverup...laugh...besides, at the moment i don't even own a two piece bathing suit. sigh...images, images. Yesterday i was so ooo unbelievably tired...can you believe i actually went to bed at 9:30? weirdo huh? on a friday night too...i dunno...i was just sooo tired. Grandma leaving soon for Calgary...sigh...things are so messed up on my dad's side of the family right now...still on good terms w/ both of my cousins tho...sigh, i can sorta feel the stress building up on me...so many things to do...so little time, and i just sometimes find it so hard to concentrate sometimes...Abba Abba