The blessing of the LORD makes a person rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.
Proverbs 10:22 NLT
*sigh*...it's not that our team isn't good, i guess we just can't capitalize on our oppurtunities...>.< :P Weekend is almost here...thank the Lord ;P Have so much to do still, neverending cycle...still can't decide on which uni to go to...ummm, Lord...i kinda need an answer from You...or mabbe i'm not listening? or mabbe i can't order You to tell me right now?...*sigh*

I will walk among you; I will be your God, and you will be my people.
Leviticus 26:12 NLT
I...(pointing at myself, chest swelling w/ pride :P)...am still living to blog today...passed bio test...i sometimes hate his tests though, there are some seriously weird questions that he likes to put on tests esp. on his M/C. *sigh*...now to look forward to a test filled week next week. >.< BUT have a soccer game tom. so that's going to help relieve some of my tension and stress. :P what would i do w/out a ball to kick...haha strategically of course. Augh, my face was like a mess this morn...*reminder to myself*: never take naps while studying...decided to take a nap yesterday at 12:30am, mmmm...just for like 15 min. to rest my eyes...wake up, it's 2:30am...AH!...so study until like 3:30am...then went back to bed and then woke up at 8:10am for school. wonderful...*sigh*...retirement...sun, summer...good thoughts...*laugh**sighs*

Surround me with your tender mercies so I may live.
Psalm 119:77 NLT
ahh...humongous bio test tom. dunno why i'm even on the internet right now...Lord, plz plz shower Your mercies over me...that i may pass this test w/ flying colours...played first soccer game today...team was St. Joseph...they went to OFSAA last year...we lost 3-0...argh...still, we played pretty well. next game is thurs. against St. Paul. fun fun. Gotta sign off now...study, work, study, work, study...

The LORD doesn't make decisions the way you do! People judge by outward appearance, but the LORD looks at a person's thoughts and intentions
1 Samuel 16:7b NLT
*wow*...i feel like such a pessimist, it's monday, and already i'm depressed at how much work i still need to do ahead of me. Haha...need to look forward to retirement now. Busy every single day of the week: this morn. was at school for 7:30 getting bio help, had soccer practice after school, tutor tonight at 8pm, hwk hwk, tom. morn. prolly going back for bio help at 7:30am, data quiz, have soccer game at 4pm, hwk, study for bio test tom., weds. morn. prolly have a 7:30am soccer practice, test in bio (fail, ahh), data quiz, thurs. morn. have band practice at 7:30am, data quiz, soccer game at 4pm, hwk, fri...hrmmm...fri...oh yeah,hwk and data quiz *sigh* then weekend...:P then data project, but i love you weekend. :P *Good thoughts*: uhhh, can take out stress on the soccer ball, have fun chatting up w/ fav bio teacher, could see Scott soon, uhh, ideas, oh, baskin robbins has a free icecream night on weds...mmm, pink bubblegum ice-cream. i dunno. Lord, plz help me see the light at the end of the tunnel, and know that You are here with me always.

They must not speak evil of anyone, and they must avoid quarreling. Instead, they should be gentle and show true humility to everyone.
Titus 3:2 NLT
Some ppl came home from uni today...^.^ Still have tons of work to do, still have to decide on uni, but thank You Lord for being here w/ me. Take my hand, and show me the way, cuz i'm lost w/out You. Plz answer my prayers...

It is not merely knowing the law that brings God's approval. Those who obey the law will be declared right in God's sight.
Romans 2:13 NLT

Dear brothers and sisters, be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Your anger can never make things right in God's sight.
James 1:19-20 NLT
Wise words...omgoodness...i owe Vesey so ooo much...he just like taught us about half the unit of bio test that we have coming up next week. Paying him back is going to be hard :P ;P Still so much work to do, tests, assignments coming up. Ahh...summer plz come soon...and hopefully, if it's God's will, i will be able to find a good job. Dad just installed new phone system...err...how do i make a phone call outside now? :P Gotta learn those codes. Ian's gone for the weekend to a swim comp. YES! :P only child for the weekend...love it...

God did not send his Son into the world to condemn it, but to save it.
John 3:17 NLT

When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you.
Isaiah 43:2a NLT
don't feel like writing anything today...still so much work to do...got tests every week for the next 3 weeks...big project needs to be completed in 3 weeks worth 35% of my mark, it's worth even more than my exam in that class! (20%) Lord, i can't do all this alone...i need You...

He will give you all you need from day to day if you live for him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern.
Matthew 6:33 NLT
Decisions, decisions...work, work, work, work...weekend, weekend, where art thou weekend?

:P first day of the week and already i am bungled w/ loads of work...*sigh*...on a good note...i have officially been accepted to all of the universities i applied to...now, decisions, decisions...right now deciding b/w Queen's and Ottawa...to stay at home? to go? If i can make this decision before i have a heart attack this week from all the work i need to get done...so signing off early. *sigh* Thank you Lord for everything...you bless me beyond what i can comprehend...i really don't deserve anything...plz, i beg of you, make my other wishes come true...if it is in your will. Love you...

I no longer count on my own goodness or my ability to obey God's law, but I trust Christ to save me.
Philippians 3:9a NLT
*sigh*...i survived the weekend! And i got my CPR-C and first aid! Yes...hrmmm...now to find a summer job...too bad Red Cross instructors was cancelled on Fri. :P Went to Jen's b-day party yesterday...mini-putting (*memories*), then went back to her house to watch League of Extraordinary Gentlemen (ma-ma-day che), had dinner and ice cream cake, mmm, some of the presents she got we kinda weird though...definitely not my style. NE ways, have soccer practice tom and tues after school...fun stuff...found out i might not be able to get an athletic letter after all...didn't participate in enough sports during my four years of high school...humph...i still think i should get some recognition though, and other ppl who have like dedicated their time to play on a certain sports team for 4 years. Starting to ask for grad deposits...ack 30$...:P which means i need to give them 60$...Grad car rally this sat. 8-11pm...hope i will be able to go, should be fun. Blah blah...oh yeah...got acceptances from Western, Ottawa, and Queen's...waiting for McMaster...they don't let you see your application status on the internet...

As we know Jesus better, his divine power gives us everything we need for living a godly life.
2 Peter 1:3a NLT

All who are led by the Spirit of God are children of God.
Romans 8:14 NLT
Going to be so tired this weekend...so packed.

Everywhere we go, we tell everyone about Christ. We warn them and teach them with all the wisdom God has given us.
Colossians 1:28 NLT
*augh*...dont' have more energy to write anything else...dreading this weekend, so much to do...

[God] will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:19b NLT
still feeling stressed, but know that God is in control...

We who have fled to him for refuge can take new courage, for we can hold on to his promise with confidence.
Hebrews 6:18b NLT
*sigh*...

sometimes...i really hate my life...i can't even make my own decisions...someone has to always interfere...i hate it when things don't go my way, selfish? i don't know...but it makes me so ooo angry...does everything hinge on marks? What happens if i flunk tom? What is going to happen then? Will i be kicked out of the house to live on the streets? What does making a particular university really matter? Does it have to have that hiatus status like Yale and Princeton? The way i'm looking at it...i might really want to leave, but i can't because of stupid money issues...sometimes i just want to run away, hide away from the world, and just not have a single care for anyone. I'd rather be on a deserted island than be where i am right now...i hate my life and what is happening now...stupid *******...leave me alone! Let me make my own decisions! Let me learn from my own mistakes! if you really want to go to that university and really want that job...why don't you do it? like i care...i hate this Lord...nothing's going right...why can't you just help me do what i need and want to do...get these people off my back, i have my own life, i have my own conscience, i have my own mind, i can make decisions for myself...i'm basically eighteen for goodness sakes!! i can even sign my own papers!! This life sucks...i just want to go away...far from everyone...just me and ____ on an island, away...without a care for the world. Lord...hear my pain and agony...be merciful.

You will keep on guiding me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny.
Psalm 73:24 NLT
You know that i am disappointed and confused and hurt...why Lord? Is this the way it's supposed to be? What is Your Plan? I know that You will keep on guiding me with Your counsel, to a glorious destiny, just know that i would like that to also happen to other certain people...if it is Your Will, let them be miraculous(?) miracles. Please Lord, let me believe that my prayers are not in vain. I do trust You Lord, and i know that everything happens in Your time, according to Your plan. You know my wishes, my dreams...please let them come true because i believe in miracles, and i believe in You, and only You can make these things happen. I give everything to You, without You, i am nothing, but with(in) You, i can be anything. Give me a sign...let me know that what i know is true.

We must each stand before Christ to be judged. We will each receive whatever we deserve for the good or evil we have done.
2 Corinthians 5:10 NLT
ANothER interesting bible verse...what do yesterdays and todays verses mean?
Today was an awesome day...*sigh**laugh*...i haven't been able to see *ahem* for ages, and i today i got a chance to see him again and it was just...laugh...let's just leave it at that...:P and just remembered that i left my photo album in his car, hrmmm, gonna need to get that back...laugh...another meeting should i ask? So yeah, mom dropped me off at the entrance of Place D' Orleans, laugh, where Scott picked me up. Ate lunch at Tim Horton's...actually saw an old schoolmate of mine from Trillium, laugh, we actually recognized each other, hrmm, very interesting, hope things don't start flying around at his school. Anyways, hung out at his place for a while, showed him some pics, originally we were going to go rock climbing, but it wasn't open until like two...and i needed to be back here by 3:45, so out of the question, laugh, *drawl* yeah...called Andrew up, decided to go to a driving range?!?! Uh huh, moi? Never touched a golf club in my life...laugh...is a putter considered one? Anyways, apparently they had really bad putting places in Orleans, so we ended coming all the way here, and going to putting edge, which was pretty fun...laugh, yeah, basically it was a competition b/w Andrew and Scott...laugh...i never stood a chance, and they had the decency NOT to count up my final score on the scorecard...hey...i was in it for the fun. Teehee, now, when i go to a b-day party next week at the same place, i'll have an advantage at knowing all the different courses and stuff ;P Interesting comment my dad made today, 'so is it official?' *sigh*...Lord, i pray for it everyday, and You know what my wishes are, please...can you make them come true? Please Lord, i beg of You, if it is in Your Will, please make it happen...You gave me the courage to ask of the wish/ task, now i look to You for guidance and a result...in Your time. Please Lord...

He is filled with kindness and is eager not to punish you.
Joel 2:13b NLT
*laugh*...boy am i glad to hear that...i've committed so many sins...;P School's out for the long weekend!! Yeah, should actually use the term 'school's out' for the summer, but...first soccer practice/ tryout today...*woah*...never knew i was THAT out of shape...laugh, j/k j/k...not too bad actually...i think we have a pretty decent team? We'll see how that goes.

“Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?” “No;” Jesus replied, “seventy times seven!”
Matthew 18:21b-22 NLT

“Daughter,” [Jesus] said to her, “your faith has made you well. Go in peace.”
Luke 8:48 NLT
How does the verse go again? My peace i give to you, my peace something something...long weekend this week...yes! I can't wait...laugh...*ahem*...Lord, You know my deepest desires and fears...give me the courage i beg of You...show me what to do.

mmm...weekend...glad i don't have that much hwk...*sigh*...so tired...zzz zzz zzz