sometimes...i really hate my life...i can't even make my own decisions...someone has to always interfere...i hate it when things don't go my way, selfish? i don't know...but it makes me so ooo angry...does everything hinge on marks? What happens if i flunk tom? What is going to happen then? Will i be kicked out of the house to live on the streets? What does making a particular university really matter? Does it have to have that hiatus status like Yale and Princeton? The way i'm looking at it...i might really want to leave, but i can't because of stupid money issues...sometimes i just want to run away, hide away from the world, and just not have a single care for anyone. I'd rather be on a deserted island than be where i am right now...i hate my life and what is happening now...stupid *******...leave me alone! Let me make my own decisions! Let me learn from my own mistakes! if you really want to go to that university and really want that job...why don't you do it? like i care...i hate this Lord...nothing's going right...why can't you just help me do what i need and want to do...get these people off my back, i have my own life, i have my own conscience, i have my own mind, i can make decisions for myself...i'm basically eighteen for goodness sakes!! i can even sign my own papers!! This life sucks...i just want to go away...far from everyone...just me and ____ on an island, away...without a care for the world. Lord...hear my pain and agony...be merciful.