:D Teehee...my friend alan created this logo for me...kewl...*smiles* i do like water. So it's the start of a new week...*sigh* so much stuff to do...ahaha, why did the idea of going to asian semi ever pop into my mind? Housemates are good...Lol, talked to my mom sooo late on msn...it was so funny, she was like...bea, u keep me up longer than now (1:30am) and i won't be able to wake up for church tom. ^^ Talking to the 'rents are actually kinda calming and nice. Mabbe write more later...in the week.
For you are all children of the light and of the day; we don't belong to darkness and night.
1 Thessalonians 5:5 NLT
The Lord is wonderfully good to those who wait for him and seek him.
Lament. 3:25 NLT

*sigh* another week is gone....hrmmm...not bad week i guess...got a chance to really have some good talks i guess w/ ppl. Thx pooky and alan ;P Ccf was good as always last night...praise and prayer...leon's visiting!! =P Apparently i missed a good bbt experience last night tho. But it was good to just hang out at andrea's place w/ them and catch up...good times...good times. To go to retreat, or to not go to retreat...that is the question. Lotsa work to do this weekend...ahh, gotta finish ==' Had lunch w/ a bunch of ccf ppl...haha, we just all happened to go to the caf at the same time...fun, fun XD Having dinner over at andrea's place on sun...yay! ^^ Hrmmm...been hearing things fr/ back in ottawa...kinda glad that i have most of exams b/f reading week...altho psyc is after >.< Ne ways, better get some work done now. Lord, i continue to put all my trust in You...You alone will carry me through all things.
Wisdom is of more value than foolishness, just as light is better than darkness.
Ecclesiastes 2:13 NLT

These past few days have been a little bit offsetting to say the least. It's a little bit disconcerting...i dunno know what to think. Can i just act like a bad lil princess and scream aloud? Who am i? How do ppl view me? What do they think of me? Am i a little bit on the weird side? How am i supposed to act? What's the proper etiquette? How am i amplifying God's love in me? Do ppl see it? Why am i happy? i know i'm happy internally b/c i have the greatest Best Friend and Father in the whole wide universe and received the best gift ever given to me. Outwardly? I must say that i have not honestly have had a truly 'happy' laugh for a long long time. I do admit i laugh easily, giggle alot...but it really doesn't mean i'm totally happy, does it? No. I don't feel like i've honestly felt comfortably happy for some time. Highlight of the week was talking to my family via video conference...it was really awesome just to see and talk to them...just to express my thoughts, feelings, concerns. =P I like talked to them for like 2hrs online. It felt really good after saying bye to them...my lil bro never forgets to say that he loves me...and that means so much to me right now. I don't really understand this world...and i'm not too sure i want to...it's really messed up. So many secrets. Went to a job fair today...it was kinda interesting, providing that we only had ten min b/f our next class. Went up to a recruitment table...i think i might just consider it...but don't know if it's a viable option right now...joining the Canadian Forces. I would be studying for them kinda, they would pay for my education and everything...and i would serve them for like 3yrs after i graduate. I would go to school during the yr and go to training camp during the summer...and it could be in Ottawa. I dunno...i wouldn't mind it...there's the benefits of a job, pensions =P. I think i can handle it...i mean...training camp...it's not like i haven't done some hardcore training in my life b/f w/ swimming, soccer and stuff. With God i can do all things, conquer all things ^^. Bible study on mon. was really good...i'm learning so much right now...trying to understand God's purposes and parables- Luke 15. *sigh* Life down here right now is very hard to live through and understand. I need you Abba...hold me, tell me that You'll always be there for me...telling me that You love me. You alone satisfy all my desires and longings...i look to You alone.
As your words are taught, they give light; even the simple can understand them.
Psalm 119:130 NLT
Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light for my path.
Psalm 119:105 NLT

i'm so imcompetent w/ the comp =P *woah* i haven't blogged in a long time. So, to recap...my Christmas holidays were pretty good. I went to syracuse to shop w/ my family and was able to swim in a pool again. Also went to TO to see the Mammia Mia show...which was very good might i add...it was like a girl thing, just me and my mom :) Celebrated New Yrs in TO...ahaha...just good memories w/ the family ^^. Was able to spend time w/ friends also tho i missed Leon's korean bbq dinner and Rita's new yrs party :( Lol...gooberhead is still chessmaster. Had my annual sleepover w/ pooky and shopping, hung out w/ jas and andrew watching meet the fockers...hrmmm...funny and interesting movie...didn't really like all the sexual innuendos, but what can i do? Hanging out w/ andrew was fun...i always feel so comfortable around him...teehee, and i love his parents...they're so nice to me ^^. Went shopping w/ elana...so fun. Oh ya, i drove the car by myself for the first time...ahaha...in the worst weather also...interesting timing Lord ;) Mom was sick the week that ian started school, so dad drove her to work one day, and so there was a car in the driveway...there was an extra set of keys...so i picked ian up fr/ school! Seeing SRB brought back memories again...good and bad. Ahaha...i feel so old. Looking for ian took some time...but i got a chance to see my old bio teacher again- vesey. Looking back, even tho not everybody liked his teaching style...i really enjoyed learning bio fr/ him...he had this passion about his work...and he made learning fun =P I'm really thankful that he taught me so much...and now i find i'm using alot of the stuff that he taught me in school. He also helped my by letting me borrow his wife's nursing books ;P Gotta love the connections. Anyways, i think my parents are feeling more comfortable letting me drive alone...i know i just need to be patient...cuz nothing is really good if things are rushed. I find that my rltnshp w/ my lil bro has changed since leaving for Queen's...he's so much more mature now...altho i act like a kid whenever i'm around him =P I think he's starting to open his eyes to the world around him, and learning how to interact w/ the ppl around him. I'm so proud of him and his accomplishments...he's honestly the best lil bro i could ever ask for. I feel so loved by him whenever i talk to him...he never forgets to say 'i love u' at the end of our conversations...and i find that i can talk to him on a more personal basis this yr...he's so cool! *smiles* i couldn't believe that my mom almost started crying when i was about to leave to go back to kingston...i honestly feel so blessed to have such loving parents...and i'm slowly realizing all the sacrifices they have done so that i can be even more enriched in my life. I hardly argue w/ my parents nemore...it's all talk...i like it. I'm starting to try to understand what it's like to really be a grown up in this world...my parents have taught me well ^^ Oh ya, had so much fun helping dad w/ the renovations in the basement...i'm so proud of him...doing everything by hand...teehee...altho this is prolly gonna be the last basement he's gonna work on...it'll be his lasting legacy =P Ahaha...scrubbing each tile on the basement floor made me feel like cinderella...but it was a labour of love...i'm just glad that i'm learning fr/ my dad the tricks of the trade...teehee...don't worry! i can handle power tools fine =P Oh right...carpenter's rule- measure twice, cut once.
So, i've been back to school for two weeks now...time really flies by...in just a few more weeks midterms are coming up...egad! I'm really happy i chose to go to queen's...i love my program, the ppl around me, the atmosphere. Yes, the work is hard...but i know that this is the vision that God has for me...so i want to willingly do this for Him. Praise and power is always good here...i really like the lyrics b/c that's what it's honestly about...He is worthy...and I stand in awe of You...Jesus, i'm so in love w/ u. KCCF is as cool as ever, last week was amazing race, which was so hilarious...my cell grp is so funny =P Doing all the challenges was fun...it was also an interesting time learning about my cell grp members...and i feel like i'm getting to know alot better. Still going to Campus Crusade's weekly mon night bible studies...it's really good...i'm learning so much there...it's mostly nursing gals...so that's really cool. I hope that i'll feel more confident in verbally spreading the gospel...b/c that's what God commanded us to do right? I'm still praying for friends...a few yrs now...but i have faith...God CAN work miracles...b/c i've experienced and seen them happen. So...courses, some are kinda dull this semester...but health assessment is cool...working in a mock examining room...learning all the practical things a nurse needs to know...anat is the best subject right now...my prof is So hilarious...*smiles* i'm glad i have so many profs who are passionate about their subject. Weather is crzy as ever...it's so windy and cold...augh >.< I wanna be in the Maldives...sun & water...paradise. We finally found a house! It's pretty close to campus...teehee...i'm so lazy. The house is really nice, pics are up on website. It was honestly so stressful looking for a house...for a moment there i was wondering if i was gonna live on the streets ;P j/k j/k. Ahaha...i had more exercise walking around all last week than i had in one mth. So many diff. responsibilities...it'll definitely be a learning experience. Housemates...crystal and val are fr/ nursing, steph and carolyn in artsci. I think it's gonna be a fun living w/ them next yr(s). It's also definitely gonna be a learning experience...ahaha...so That's what it's like living w/ a person! ;P Our landlady is a little bit eccentric...she like loves her houses...views us as her investments. I'm pretty sure Alot of her rules and regulations were illegal according to the tenant-landlord act...no drinking SOFT DRINKS after 6pm outside, she owns the porch so she could legally just stand outside ur window and listen/look in, no loitering outside house, not allowed outside after 9pm, ur allowed to use a bbq in the back- just not on her property, only allowed 4 extra guests after 9pm, she walks around checking all 100 of her houses w/ a personal bodyguard, and if we deliberately try to make her life miserable by breaking all her million rules she will personally and Legally annoy u so that she will affect ur marks and make ur life miserable O.o *woah* that's even more stricter than my own house. Oh well...what can i do? I'm pretty sure we can live w/ them =P Getting more into chinese music now...ahaha...*gush* aaron kwok, andy hui, jay chow. Watched the new movie by stephew chow, director and actor of shaolin soccer...oh my, kung fu hustle is...Interesting...ahaha...the movie's kinda funny and weird. =P On the same subject of watching shows...ahaha...i think i watch too much...Eek, i'm like hooked onto 4 diff. anime shows- Initial D (ya!), naruto, bleach, and gundam seed destiny...teehee...plus i like watching csi- las vegas, new york, and miami. *laugh* i was going to watch 24...but the show is so good i don't think i would be able to stand waiting a whole week to see what happens in the next hr =P I'm impatient that way...ahaha...that's what happened when i watched season one ;P Been trying to exercise every week at the PEC...it's going pretty well...trying to tone my legs and strengthen my upper body ;) Ahaha...was so funny when i walked into the weight room last week w/ sarah and val...all the boys were staring at us when we lifted weights...*laugh* i think we only stayed in there for like 10min. Hrmm...boys...ahaha...such a touchy topic...i think i've kinda stopped looking...if God has a guy in mind for me in my life...i'm just gonna let him come to me...i've got things to do, places to go. It's just so hard for me to find somebody compatible...ahaha...Lord, u know! XD I know that i have to be comfortable just w/ God in my life...and He will take care of the rest. God always gives me the best...in His wonderful plan. And i know that i can live w/out a boi for now...God is my first priority. I can't imagine living w/out God. He's like my staple in life...a rltnshp i treasure more than nething else...who can find a better Best friend? Teacher? God? Love? Protector? Rock? Leader? I will follow You wherever i go Lord...
Anyways, i should get to bed...God is good to those who love and obey Him.
*Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. ~1 Corinthians 13:7 NLT
*Love means doing what God has commanded us, and he has commanded us to love one another, just as you heard from the beginning. ~2 John 1:6 NLT
*There are three things that will endure—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love. ~1 Corinthians 13:13 NLT
*I love you, Lord; you are my strength. ~Psalm 18:1 NLT
*Get all the advice and instruction you can, and be wise the rest of your life. ~Proverbs 19:20 NLT
*He gives power to those who are tired and worn out; he offers strength to the weak. ~Isaiah 40:29 NLT
*Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world. ~John 16:33 NLT
*You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, whose thoughts are fixed on you! ~Isaiah 26:3 NLT
*Blessed are those who trust in the LORD and have made the LORD their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank. ~Jeremiah 17:7-8 NLT
*He is the source of every mercy and the God who comforts us. ~2 Corinthians 1:3 NLT
*We know that [trials] are good for us--they help us learn to endure. ~Romans 5:3 NLT
*I will be faithful to you and make you mine, and you will finally know me as LORD. ~Hosea 2:20 NLT
*When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. ~Isaiah 43:2 NLT
*****all the verses helped me go through exam period and when i looked for love*****

our house next yr, housemates- crystal, val, steph, and carolyn

sarah, me, and crystal back fr/ the break