=P bad pic of me...but just thought i'd put this pic of me and rents up...i love my rents to death...
Today...i've felt compelled to say that without my dad i'd be sooo lost in this world. It's so scary sometimes how he knows so much about me w/out me even saying nething to him. Haha...we're almost exact copies of each other =P Too many similarities to name XD Yes...none of us are perfect...but i look up to him sooo much. We're both learning alot from each other...to become a better person, parent, independent individual. Lol...yes, i'm daddy's little princess...and i'll always be =P I know he'd do absolutely nething for me...sacrificing many things to make my life better...haha...even to let mom send me my fav pants to another city so i could wear it b/c i forgot it =P This kind of love...this is something that i treasure so much...and i hope i can find this in my future bf/ husband...someone who puts others before themselves. I marvel at how i also have so much impact on my dad...the things i supposedly teach him...lol. For someone like my dad to admit that he's done things wrong to my face...to say he's sorry...to take the time to write lengthy letters/emails...to spend hours on webcam with me even though he has other things to do around the house...to cook for me even tho i always tease him about his cooking skills =P...to teach me the works of the house- how to build rooms, how to set up the telephone/ intercom system around the house, how the computer works when he fixes them up...to take the time to listen to my problems and try to help me resolve them to his best extent...to help me with my work- help me understand concepts, provide materials/ tutors to help me better understand things...to take the time to play and have fun with me...to give me personal advice on spiritual and guy issues =P...to take the time to show me the world- to experience/ travel to places that i'll never be able to go by myself...i'm almost put at a loss to say just how great of a dad God has given me. I'm soo thankful for my dad (lol...mommy too =P)...but yeah...for God to give me a father here that understands me so much...that loves me so much...thank you Abba~

*smiles* i'm almost done the first year of university! One more exam tom!! Health assessment XP Then going to nursing gang lunch ;P I can't believe it...it's gone by really fast...Can't wait to go home...see family, see friends that i haven't seen in a long time...but i'm looking forward to what the future has in store for me...cuz i know that God has many plans for me...plans not to hurt me, but to prosper me. Abba...you are all that i ask for...

*I love the Lord because He hears and answers my prayers. Because He bends down and listens,... Psalm 116:1-2 NLT
*For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And the door is opened to everyone who knocks. Matthew 7:8 NLT
*"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down His life for the sheep.” John 10:11 NLT
*****really like these verses...just shows how much love i've been showered w/*****

As first yr comes rolling past...i'm reminded by all of the lessons that i've learned since coming to university...and i can say that i've grown up more...and become a better person because of those around me...so, thank you.
I'm just so glad to have finished last week...it was kinda brutal...having 4 exams in a row then a break for a day (not really) and then two more exams in a row. Sigh...so just one more on the 26th...health assessment. Just can't believe that first year is really ending...it went by really fast. Like i said before...the things i've learned about myself, others...cannot be put into one entry. I look to the sky and see the vastness of Your Creation...i've still got alot to learn...but one step at a time. Thank You for being by my side always...irreplaceable You are to me. Just learning to just lean on You alone...You're the only One who'll never let me down...never let me go...never leave me...never stop loving me...never stop blessing me...never hurt me. Each year, You have provided everything i need...shown me what i need to see...steered me in the right directions...held my hand and carried my through hard times and good...*smiles* Abba.
Past few days been trying to finalize house issues...gah...didn't know that there are so many things to do...seriously, now i know just how much my rents need to manage. But i know that living in the house w/ the girls that i'm staying w/...it's going to be a great experience :) Lol...i know...i'm very straightforward...i'll say things if i think they need to be said, and noone is willing to say it. =P Haha...i know i can be blunt at times, coming on strong to others...but i think that's the way i've been brought up...what my life experiences have shaped and taught me to be...i'm not scared to ask questions...to know more...lol...i hunger for more knowledge...for more understanding...for more wisdom...=P But everything i do...i believe i do in the best interest of others...everything i do i want to honour You...You are the cornerstone of my life.
Mmm...so nursing partay went alright...we had our fun...but we also had a good sharing time afterwards. I believe that what we all said to each other that night was all said w/ good intentions...not meant to break each other down...but to lift each other up and open their eyes to see what was before them...make each other see both sides of the story. We're all called to be followers and reflect the image of Him in everything we do...this involves sacrifices...but i know in the end it will be all worth it...i'm still learning...just learning how to put all my trust in You...b/c sometimes it's hard to let go...not really fully leaning on You, trying to do things my way and falling short. Just really thankful for the family and friends that i have...no words can adequately sum up how they each have taught me, challenged me, supported me to be who i am today.
Looking to the sky...feeling the warmth of Your touch...the wind caressing my face...feeling Your warmth envelope me...just happy to be in Your Presence.

*Jesus told him, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through Me." John 14:6 NLT
*"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. [2] He cuts off every branch that doesn't produce fruit, and He prunes the branches that do bear fruit so they will produce even more." John 15:1-2 NLT
*Yes, I am the gate. Those who come in through Me will be saved. Wherever they go, they will find green pastures. John 10:9 NLT
*Jesus said to the people, "I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won't be stumbling through the darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life." John 8:12 NLT
*Jesus replied, "I am the bread of life. No one who comes to me will ever be hungry again. Those who believe in me will never thirst." John 6:35 NLT
*Be sure to do what you should, for then you will enjoy the personal satisfaction of having done your work well, and you won't need to compare yourself to anyone else.
Galatians 6:4 NLT
*Examine yourselves to see if your faith is really genuine. Test yourselves. If you cannot tell that Jesus Christ is among you, it means you have failed the test.
2 Corinthians 13:5 NLT
*****mmm...i esp like the last two verses...they speak volumes to me :)*****

A single stone dropped in water can sound like thunder crashing down in the silence...=P took pic at the lake
*sigh* what can i say? I'm at a loss of words...how i can be so upset and frustrated so much. Just continuing to trust and lean on God each day; to look to Him as to what i should do...i do want to honour You in every aspect of my life. I dunno...how ppl can live w/out u...i guess in their good time. Everything has a reason...and it falls all according to Your Perfect Plan. Just continually realizing how i yearn for so much more...yet i somehow forget to look in front of me and see how i've already been given all that i need. Yesterday...just made me think of it again...i've really been blessed w/ the friends that i've met this yr...and the friends that i already had back home...*smiles* i continually look to u all for guidance and comfort =) So thankful. And i know...waiting can be so hard...patience is a virtue =P...but i know in the end...it'll be worth it all b/c it'll be So much better than i imagined. *smiles* what can i do w/out you Abba...u take care of me =)
3 exams done...4 more to go..ahhh. Lab exam went fine...psyc exam was alright i guess...MMRI, extro/ intro version!?! Anat and physio...easteal's part was great...thx for the lovely exam gift =) baer..argh...Tom's nutrition...ahh...i love my joycee poo...next tues is OSCE...O.o...then weds is biochem...yech =S...then following tues is health assessment...ahh...so close to being done. Hmm..drinking hooch...i wonder how that'll go down now...should be a very interesting night. Ahh...can't wait to move into our house...so psyched...i'm living w/ some of the most wonderful gals =) lol...sares, ur our 6th housemate XD. Ahh...can't wait to leave...and go on another all girls trip w/ my wonderful mommy. Haha..shopping...a/c...work...play/ friends =D I still have no idea what i should wear...oh dear...trouble...hahaha.

Mmm...lol...so many memories made this yr...to reminence (copying crys)--- "hey nurses, how do You feel?" | throw rocks | sleep positions | lake | quiet talks | semi | skele-T brad | triple peace sign | "i'm normal" | throwing snow | endocytosis | nellie | meals @ leonard | vic hall working | food! | skip tally | sleeping in class | randomness | PEC workouts | starbucks | maltesers | rabbit | "don't put ur feet on my bed!" | lab dates | Daphne Dean | bday suprises | housing initiation | hlth assessment | mac-corry | and many more memories to come...

**"Well then," he said, "give to Caesar what belongs to him. But everything that belongs to God must be given to God." Luke 20:25 NLT
**Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. Psalm 139:23 NLT
**I pondered the direction of my life, and I turned to follow your statutes. Psalm 119:59 NLT
**Put me on trial, Lord, and cross-examine me Test my motives and affections. Psalm 26:2 NLT
**Don't sin by letting anger gain control over you, think about it overnight and remain silent. Psalm 4:4 NLT
*****wow...these verses really apply to me right now...haha...He knows all!!*****

me and my mommy in front of my uncle's place...well, kinda..in hk =)
*SIGH* how much do i detest emotions at the moment? ==' Not cool at the moment...To know...and to yet not know...blahhhhhhhh. I really don't need distractions...and i know that i'm not helping myself at the moment. Just need to keep focus on my main goals...what are my purposes here? *breathe* need to feel the calmness of His pure love wash over me. Focusfocusfocus...haha...being a girl sometimes sux...tend to overanalyze things...think too deeply into things...to dwell too much on little things...GAH! BAH! Haha...say-la...deem lei? ==' I know...it's a narrow path that i walk down...but i am going to follow You for the rest of my days...and i know that it requires sacrifices...but in the end...the blessings and rewards will overflow. I have faith in You...and will trust You to the end. *smiles* There is so much still for me to see...to know...to learn...*sigh* that felt good...to just blurt things out...no worries ^^ if things are meant to be...they will come to me...haha...give me a sign God...=P i want to know now!
On another note...studying hardcore...well kinda =P I want to honour You here...i know this is what You have called me to do. Ai ya...didn't realized just how much i really need to do...haha...prayers are welcome =P Lol...it'll be a miracle that i'll survive through all of this ;P FanQ my dear joycee-poo. Yesyes...counting my blessings...Haha..drinking hooch...oh dear ==' who'll go down first? XP
Can't wait until exams are done...looking forward to the summer =) The possibilities...the adventures...the unknown =P Hopefully i will travel more this time...yea! all girls trip ;) So good just spending time w/ a friend last night...just to laugh and talk...no superficiality...that's what i like...Haha...don't leave me!! =P Lol...i'll just give u a spare ==', food's in the fridge...2nd floor is where it's happening XD Ahh...squishie and alfalfa head...=( i miss u guys...so good to me...happily anticipating those letters =)
*Sighhh* Thank You for everything...be they good or bad...each experience has made me a stronger and better person...to know...to know...that is my request...give me a sign...
*Then we your people, the sheep of your pasture, will thank you forever and ever, praising your greatness from generation to generation. Psalm 79:13 NLT
*****Thank you Abba...i wouldn't be here w/out You in the first place*****

mmm...went to the lake again today w/ sares and her friend tom...You make the world beautiful...the colours of Your love~

gracie, nathaniel, and me...lol...and johnny and craig behind =P
oh man...grad night...lotsa laughs and good times...definitely took their words of widsom and advice to heart...just made me think...this year...definitely lotsa memories made...going to treasure them...learned alot this year...grew up alot spiritually...so much...i'm really glad that i came =) Haha...learned to be a bit more independent i guess...lol...next yr there'll definitely be more adventures =P Haha...never knew there was so much to do for a house! Neways, definitely learned to acknowledge and treasure the ppl i've met around me. They've all taught me something...challenged me to become a better person. The ppl in ccf have just shown me how His Hands are on us...it's great. God works miracles.
AHhhhh...so many things to still do to prep for exams...haha...this is my break! Just trusting You to carry me through these times esp...need You always...my Shepherd...guide me down the narrow path.
The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep hear his voice and come to him. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. John 10:3 NLT
*Once you were wandering like lost sheep. But now you have turned to your Shepherd, the Guardian of your souls. John 10:3 NLT
*My sheep recognize my voice; I know them, and they follow me. John 10:27 NLT

random pic taken in leon (l-r: me, jeff (usha!), lianne, val and crys...*sigh* can't believe that school's going to be done this week...the time honestly flew by so fast...ahh! *smiles* went to the lake to de-stress...so good :) I love it there now...my place of calm and comfort. Just looking at the lights on the other side of the lake...Your Light just keeps shining through Lord...continuing to be a beacon of hope and love to me...never allowing me to stray...always watching out for me. In Your time~
*He will feed His flock like a shepherd. He will carry the lambs in his arms, holding them close to His heart. He will gently lead the mother sheep with their young. Isaiah 40:11 NLT

Another pic of the beautiful scenery at the lake...thx Lord for being here for me :)

Went to the lake today after dinner just to sit and have some quiet time w/ God...*wow* i'm So glad that i went...was so peaceful and uplifting...to be able to fully share w/ Him what has been going through my mind and heart...sing/ talk...the blessings and answered prayers, the tiny frustrations and incessant problems...just letting loose...*smiles* some wet eyes...but it's all good...such a release. *smiles* i'm definitely going to be doing it more often ^^ There is none like You...noone else can touch my heart like You do...i could sing for all eternity long...there is none like You~
*But He led His own people like a flock of sheep, guiding them safely through the wilderness. Psalm 78:52 NLT

the whole group that went to celebrate jenna's bday...lol...good times ^^
Okay...today i read a classmate's life story...to be quite honest...i'm stunned and still struggling to grasp the immensity of it. I can say tho that it has certainly impacted me and my thoughts. Each person has their own life story to share, each is different. I'm still trying to understand and absorb everything...to think that one can go through so many hardships, and have to grow up so fast. Compared...my struggles seem like petty things...but God has humbly blessed me...and i'm Very thankful for Everything He has given me and taught me through my own struggles. I just hope that i can show Your love to him, and for him to come to terms that his life is as precious as the ones he treasures. To pray that he finds a purpose for his own life. That he continue to find peace in church...b/c the church is our safehouse :) To be able to open up his whole life to others takes alot of strengh...i pray that God You will be able to do Good Works through him. Everything You do has a reason...even though i may not always be able to fully grasp what You are trying to teach me...i will continue to have faith and trust in Your Perfect Plan. And i do hope that others will be impacted by my life story...and see the need for You to be in their life. It's not about the rules, the religion...it's about the personal relationship that you share w/ Him. Who could ask for a better Friend? A Saviour? A Father? A Love? Lord, i stand in awe of You and how You move in others...use me to further Your Kingdom...i am honoured in Your Presence~
*The Lord is my shepherd; I have everything I need. Psalm 23:1 NLT
*For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And the door is opened to everyone who knocks. Matthew 7:8 NLT
*For you are all children of the light and of the day; we don't belong to darkness and night. 1 Thessalonians 5:5 NLT

the nursing gang that went to surprise jenna on her bday last night...haha...oh valsha :P

*smiles* sares, skele-t brad and i...*sigh* endocytosis me T_T...okay...i'll be fine. Trust, trust, trust...believe, believe, believe...augh >.< it's alright...i'll be fine...just need to sort things out in my head and get the right direction. I have faith in Your Perfect Plan...and i know everything You do has a good reason. Hold me tight...never let me go...i want to fly with You...with no worries of this world. I know...i am humbly blessed...i should count my blessings. I have much to be thankful for. I am so glad alan ur there for me...u understand me...i heart u my squishie :) I know u'll always be there for me. Trust, believe, love...oh Abba...to be in Your loving arms...i want to follow You all of my days.
Studying for finals now...home stretch...almost there. Quiz on mon. Hopefully things will go through for the summer. Gotta work hard for these finals man...gotta concentrate ==' no time to think of other things. Comforted a friend on her struggle w/ her body image...it's such an overblown thing...sigh...just listening/ helping her saddened me a little...to know how much we struggle w/ the issue...why can't we just be happy w/ what God gave us? It is perfect...everything has a plan...i need to keep that in mind. If somebody doesn't really like you for who u are...they aren't worth your time. Haha...besides...it'll get worse from here on in...old and wrinkled =P Learning alot from ppl here on campus...and gradually feeling more comfortable in evangelizing to others...need to keep in mind about lifestyle evangelism...others are always watching. *sigh* why Lord is it so hard for others to accept You? I can't imagine living a day w/out You...You complete me...and know me inside out...*smiles* after all, You are my Creator :) Pray, pray, pray...i believe miracles do happen...and i do have hope. God can do great and amazing things...i've seen and experienced it...i can't deny it...*sigh* i just wish others could experience it also...so much, so badly...do i wish...for those i care about deeply.
So, today was april fools day...*smiles* i got one of my friends today :P I love connections...haha...i'll be watching all sides...lol, but i've got tricks up my own sleeve also ;) Just realized how determined i can be if i really want to do things :) I'm glad he took it in stride...i uno if many ppl would just laugh it off. I know there'll be lotsa pranks in our house next yr...lol...valsha...i heart u. Well, i've had my fun for the day...sigh, back to the studying.
You learn something new each day...~
* Only fools say in their hearts, "There is no God." Psalm 14:1 NLT
* You are the light of the world- like a city on a mountain, glowing in the night for all to see. Matthew 5:14 NLT
* Wisdom is of more value than foolishness, just as light is better than darkness.
Ecclesiastes 2:13 NLT
* As your words are taught, they give light; even the simple can understand them.
Psalm 119:130 NLT
*****light the way Lord...and i will follow You...even tho the path may be narrow and steep...i know that You'll be carrying me through it all*****